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Missed my weigh-in again!!!! Time is just getting away from me and I've been so busy...busy enough that I can't seem to get to my meetings. No matter what, I WON'T miss next week...I HAVE TO GO...I HAVE TO WEIGH IN. I've been eating o.k...just "o.k". I've had some good days, and some not so good days. Today was a good day...

12 oz. White Chocolate Americano w/ a little cream: Breakfast (6 points)

Thomas' Thin Bagel, 97% fat free lean ham, reduced-fat Havarti cheese...all toasted (yum-yum!); BIG water, and a clementine: Lunch (8 points)

Bag of Light Popcorn: Snack (3 points)

1cup Whole Wheat pasta, chicken/mushroom sauté', TBS Parmesan cheese: Dinner (10 points)

It's been a good, full, productive day. Even though I wanted to eat a WHOLE bag of Puffed Cheetos that Papa Bear bought from the Hoot Owl. I swear, I could have inhaled them if he'd opened them in the car. You'll all be glad to know that I with stood the urge, and ate popcorn instead! :) Good luck ladies with the rest of your week...I know I'm gonna need it!

Emotional "roller coaster" Eating

I kind of went "crazy" this last week, eating. I don't know what got into me...except, food...lots of food! I really can't even remember where it all went wrong, but I definitely recognized that it was emotional eating. I just didn't control it very well. PMS is staring me right in the face, too, that could be a small contributor. Sunday, it was "celebration" eating...Monday, it was "I feel bad" eating...so on and so forth...you know the story.

However...I've recouped! YAY!!! Yes, I'm back on track...and that, kids...is what it's all about. Life, it happens, but we just can't throw in the towel every time we make a wrong decision. The world is not going to stop turning, I'm not going to get fat by eating 3 pieces of pizza one night. It's when I do that every day, all the time, and not caring what I put into my body. I did miss my weigh in this week, I just didn't want to get down on myself by what the scale read. I stayed home, visited with Papa Bear and the kiddos, it was a much needed re-focus evening. Not too sure how the rest of the week will develop, I'm turning another year older and I really want to celebrate. The 4 "J"s are home from school, Papa Bear took the day off work and well...I want to have a GREAT time, and not worry about the dreaded "F" word! (food) We're going to the movies, and then out to dinner at my favorite restaurant! So...I'm giving myself a pass. A pass to enjoy, and possibly indulge...if I so, feel like it!

Today I had a nonfat Starbucks for breakfast, then met Papa Bear for lunch at Subway. Had footlong roast beef on wheat. Ate only 1/2, saved the rest for dinner. A bag of baked Lays and water. Diet Squirt and the other half for dinner. What a day, and full too! I HEART Subway...

One more thing to add before I sign off...my jeans are...TOO BIG!!!! Yes-sir-ee...they sure are! I'm wearing them until I can fit into my size 12 comfortably...then these ugly ol' things are H-I-S-T-O-R-Y....

Productive

I'm feeling quite positive, and motivated! I've been eating good, healthy, and treating myself as I follow this new life style. That's what it is...a complete life style change. It's hard, and bumpy along the way. Life happens, I make mistakes, but I haven't quit, and I haven't given up. I realize that emotionally, food will always be my vice, but if I just re-learn and adjust my coping I can have a healthy relationship with food. That's all I want, I want to be able to eat a candy bar and not feel like I need one the next day, and the next day, and the next. I want to eat good, tasty food, in a controllable way and in proportion. I know I can do it, it's just about making new habits, learning a new "brain" talk, if you will. It's a slow process, but it's working, and it's rewarding.

I am struggling, still, with exercise. It's hit and miss for sure. At times I wish I would just take the plunge and hire a personal trainer, but I don't even know if that could help me in this area. There are a lot of contributing factors to my problem. #1 I HATE EXERCISE! #2 The weather is not so hot here in the Pacific Northwest, and that's just one more reason I don't want to go outside. #3 I don't really know what I "like" or "enjoy" doing when it comes to physical activity...it's hard for me to figure that one out. #4 I've figured out how to motivate myself to eat better, but I can't seem to motivate myself to MOVE???? Anyhow...just one more area I need to work on.

Something I've been eating and really enjoy! A bagel thin, with a wedge of mozzarella & sun dried tomato laughing cow, Kirkland lean ham, and slivered red bell pepper. A tasty sandwich, with baked Lay's potato chips and a clementine. I'll probably burn myself out on it, but that's ok...it's easy and it's good.

Can I get a WHOOP-WHOOP!!!?

Weigh-In today...I am ecstatic!!!! Superbowl being Sunday, I totally ate cookies and bacon wrapped water chestnuts (heaven!) from this besty, however I did keep it to a minimum, didn't get all crazy or anything. I had lots of veggies, hummus, and fruit salad. This besty brought divine Chicken Chili, that I desperately need the recipe for!!! Guess What??????????????????

I LOST 2 MORE LBS.!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, I'm a happy girl right about now :D

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: 13.8 lbs.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So give me a virtual HIGH five, and lets do it again this week!

Just a few...

day 288. {must.lose.weight.}

Only down 1.6 lbs...a little is better than none, right???? This is a new day, a new week!

Guilty pleasures

This weekend was full of guilty pleasure food. I'm somewhat disappointed in myself, PMS time is over and I overindulged, in a big way, anyway. Friday night, I ate 2 pieces of combo pizza, and late last night I had milk & cookies when I couldn't sleep. On the other hand, I went almost 4 weeks without going over my points, so I'm just a little conflicted about the whole mess.

To make my intake a little less worrisome, I've worked out a little more than usual. Just as I'm going to do this morning with one of my gal-pals. Walk'n for weight-loss...woo-hoo!!! This is us...all beautiful and fabulous...gett'n it done!

What I've been eating

These are some of my WW meals that have been super, duper tasty and really easy to put together. I didn't get a snap shot of the coconut shrimp it was OH SO Delicious and my favorite right now!

I feel like it's important for me to try and keep a diary of what I'm eating, as much as possible, that way I can come back to this in the future when I need to remember all the great stuff that I actually I enjoyed eating along this journey.

Lean Beef Tostadas with all the fix'ins

Zucchini, carrots, tomatoes with roasted garlic hummus

Whole grain english muffin, low-fat 2% cottage cheese, and a sweet cara cara orange

Spicy Chicken Tostadas with all the fix'ins

Yummy Lentil soup

I've also made awesome smoothies using my trusty magic bullet and a few simple ingredients:

Fill the large cup half way w/ice (I used crushed)

Next, add 1/2 cup of this great stuff, a splash of vanilla

Then, of one of these guys...I was kind of nibbling on mine so I ended up 3/4 of one :)

Lastly, a tsp of this and 2 TBS of Blue Diamond Almond milk !

Viola! A wonderful smoothie worth 3 points :D

I seriously could drink one of these everyday...if only I hadn't run out of bananas!!